Lost In this Decade

Hey its ok, I believe this is where we say,
Love you for Good, Oh by the way,
My dreams are back, Nights are better with you,
Days are long, But in these winters the hours are few.

Though everything is lost, You are like,
A ray of light In the dark,
You will always be inside me,
Hope that you too remember me.

Far from being together, we sail apart,
The waves wash us afar,
STill I will stop by and Remember,
My Pinky, your Love, January to December.

At the turn of this decade,
When I came to college, We met,
Rains fell and the Summers passed,
After I left the college, and destiny kept us apart.

Even when I came to stop for some love,
I had evryone, everything, Only You I didn't Have,
Missing like the Winters without snow,
Blankets on me and I miss you.

Further, I go, Accepting my Destiny,
All I want you to do is Remember me,
I feel afraid, I feel lonely, Seems lost,
No one, No one to guide, Only You in my heart.

In my flesh and blood, In your breath my aroma,
In your presence, your warmth, Remember you forever,
Read and analyse, Missing My Love, Oh Come to my Aid,
As I stop here, My Love I Lost you In This Decade.

Broken

Suddenly, we have fallen apart,
Run out of choices, Run out of options,
Suddenly, the world as we knew it, is lonely without you,
No more days, Now only Slumber, and my eyes flow like the morning dew.

No hope, No sunshine here,
Like a kid I cry, My toy is broken, My favorite pencil is lost,
I love you so much, I will miss you a lot.
And still you wonder, why? Why I wander without U.....Why?

These are notes from my book, Notes from my Jaded life,
Several Christmases ago, the story that began,
Has now come to an end, and I feel it again, Like I wrote earlier, The pain, But my Past is all I have and I don't underestimate its Power.

The natural tendency of humans to adapt and evolve, Is sometimes a desperate attempt to live,
But Why do I? I have lost my life with you, moving on? You think this is worth moving on.
A wait worth decades and I move on over a 'Fact of Life', Hell No.
'You' are worth killing for, worth dying for, worth going to hell for.........

Still i will wait, I will wait till the end of days,
Till you feel it too, Till you feel its special, No one can love you more than me,
No one knows who you are, Know one knows who we are.
Our secret will get lost in time, and thats when our timeless reality begins.

We are a mistake that happened to be born in this age,
We should have been on a battlefield, slinging an Axe over those who want to defy us,
Slaying them for they are against us, We team up and We defeat them all. Together we stand, Divided We Fall.

Wake up and we still rest our heads on each other, We were lying,
I was lying, The ultimate Truth is no man can love you more.
I give you away, Give you for you, For your love for those whom you love.
And may I be forgotten, May my insignificant life be erased by your reality.
My dreams, Poems, love, life, may all be Forgotten, And all this be gone down in history as Broken.

Smile Here Pinky

Punish me, I am your medium, I feel soulless,
I am in a state of trance, Where you left me,
Where we left each other, And searching is not an option,
I can't forget you, You will never be lost.

The dreams still make my sub conscious weary,
I hold you so close to me, And the world is ending,
Feeling you in my lips, Your breath is like life exhales into me,
And that is my purpose, my life is in you....hope you still have it.

The birds are circling round me, mourning at my shadow,
A country with just one man, I spent a decade searching for peace,
I found you, I found it in your kiss, in your whispers,
In your calm shoulders, In your light brown eyes.

With Fire in my soul and life in my lips,
I cry out in my heart, I can feel you reading me, I can imagine you looking at that snap,
Each drop inside, is equal to a billion tonnes inside me,
Its no pain, Its a massacre.

And there is no news to rejoice, The comedian died,
Angelo is here, Oh I am serious now, Still wanting to meet Pinky,
Life sure is with you what I live in is its shadow,
You took mine away, and now Pinky here you Smile.

Decrypt Me

Lies....All Lies..I really thought when you said,
Ask and I will give you, Love and everything else,
Crying as you left, No option I had, But to,
Encrypt myself again. Surround me with hate So!

They all said, you should have fought more,
A war I bled, A river that I cried for,
I limb that I lost, A Throat that was soar,
Love is smitten me, since a long time ago.

I close me. From this world. From any one,
who enters me, who tries to gain passage,
I understand, I do now, its all Fassad,
Nowhere to find, a canvas that was well painted with me.

Jigsaw Puzzle, is what my scrambled codes look like,
No one can decrypt me, I closed myself, I did,
From anyone, No one SO I don't say You're the one.
No its not true, its always been Fun.

I miss calling you, I miss spending time,
I miss going to your ears and whispering, Saying loads of
Things that put a smiley, on that fairy face,
Your beauty is like a reason for me to live, My Poison.

I lock them away, I don't want to understand,
I feel like a child and so do you,
You know what you want, But are scared, What do to do?
May be they know it best, you think.

Well, I swear Before I met you I fell, so many times,
You fell so many times, and They didn't know about it,
Then why don't you give it a try with me.
I promise I will not let you go ever. Never.

I let you slip through my fingers in 2000,
SO close but I let you go, Again, 2009 you came into my life,
I was successful in making you mine, But I lost you again,
A Thought that I was fighting a war only if you want me too.

But I guess, it was my life, that I didn't fight for,
You had become my everything. You have become my past present and Future.
And so I close myself, Shutting me down is the easiest way,
SO you don't decrypt me anymore, And my love, Our Love gets lost forever anyway.

When You Come Back

There was a time, the good times were good,
They lasted long, But not long enough,
Far away I was from that impossible breath of freedom,
And you were gone, before I realized, That you were here to stay forever.

I constantly debate the existence of our lives,
A life full of grief of loosing, Loosing good times,
Priced possessions, People, Places, age, tastes, climates,
we are not happy with riches, we are never happy forever.

Mind me in saying, We never win any battles,
We are weak and peril human insects,
Bound to be ruled by the existence of a higher being,
Something we debate, but carefully analyze and believe relentlessly.

Far from our goals there is a perfect crime, happening each day,
In our minds in our hearts, In the breath we take, In the heart that beats,
We fall short for every kindness we deserve,
Still we expect, that the judgment day may go like a walk in the park.

All is felt like lost, no more battles, no more fresh water,
Quenching my thirst? why, Is there a reason to live?
The skies turn dark, Like a sandstorm, rising from the east,
I can't see anymore, My lost hope, is now a lost thought.

Then an explosion happens, Magnitude of biblical propositions,
Like the sitar of the Carnatic music, when struck,
The ground shakes, The vibration inside me, The atomic energy unleashed,
The massive reaction, triggered in to the atmosphere, NO sound, No emotions, No thoughts, Only Awe, COz It was U.

Breathless, Like Heart beats a skip, In temporary transition,
Feels like I have no body anymore, a higher reason, a higher power,
Celestial powers, rise me, I rise, No thoughts, No fears, Complete peace,
Feels Like a Thousand Orgasm, Packed in to one great explosion inside me, continuous, non-stop, Imagine That!

And I rise, No more breath needed, no more life needed, No beats,
No more walking, No more touch, No hands nor feet,
Suddenly, nothing is measurable, No time and space continuum,
The Quantum of relativity, is no longer in effect, And you know why,
I find out As I say this.

I have risen, I can see you, Feel you,
I can feel you forever now, I can have you forever now,
No power stops me, The power has become me, I don't belong to this world anymore,
I feel like, like...... I am back coz I love you, and I missed you a lot, I was waiting and now it's over, Coz you are back.

Leave Me Behind

Speed of light is all you need, To fly away from me,
This present is full of warm emotions, But this is my reality,
I feel you near, can't express in words, But I miss you a lot,
How do I know, you miss me too, Why do I feel this Pain?

Keep my joys, Keep my Luck, Give me your Sorrows,
Give me all your bad omen, Take my life, But this Love I borrow,
I feel lonely here, without you, Without you the nights scare me,
There is no one out there, I reached out to touch you.....But

I do my part, I give myself in sacrifice, To the Gods unknown,
No Victory, No Love, This Power descended from above, But I am not a God
Like you, I am weak, I am peril, My understanding is weakening me,
My Love for you grows, But I pay the cost. Me!

I guess, My time is up, This world was but a means to get you to me,
Now I have you, And I realized I should not have let you go.
I find my peace in you. You are my true God. My Religion.
My hope, My Song, My Smile, My Jesus, My Ram, My Allah.

I guess, this is the furthest I can go, I have lost my way,
I find myself left behind, You are God, Traveling by the speed of light,
Tried to catch up, I guess my body is weak and full of fright.
In reverence I bow down, I Still Love You, But Leave Me Behind.

The further we go, The roads shall get worse,
I am a warrior, And You are my angel, But gazing at the millions,
I tremor, Baby, Love is War, You Fight You Win, each time every time, For US.
You are the ruler of my heart, That's why accept my Sacrifice.

I am dying now, The Gods have heard me, They cry in regret,
My Body turns to dust, withering my feet, my fingers, Into Sand they turn,
Each part slowly withers, All that remains is my Heart, That still Burns,
Your Love is still in me, Like Its Greek Mythology.

I swear I will walk past you as a ghost, For times to come,
Just to be with you, close to you, Protecting you,
In Loving you, I find my purpose, My wish is that you Win,
Your Sweet love lives in me, My Love, I Pass Away.....its time, Leave Me Behind.