Lost In this Decade

Hey its ok, I believe this is where we say,
Love you for Good, Oh by the way,
My dreams are back, Nights are better with you,
Days are long, But in these winters the hours are few.

Though everything is lost, You are like,
A ray of light In the dark,
You will always be inside me,
Hope that you too remember me.

Far from being together, we sail apart,
The waves wash us afar,
STill I will stop by and Remember,
My Pinky, your Love, January to December.

At the turn of this decade,
When I came to college, We met,
Rains fell and the Summers passed,
After I left the college, and destiny kept us apart.

Even when I came to stop for some love,
I had evryone, everything, Only You I didn't Have,
Missing like the Winters without snow,
Blankets on me and I miss you.

Further, I go, Accepting my Destiny,
All I want you to do is Remember me,
I feel afraid, I feel lonely, Seems lost,
No one, No one to guide, Only You in my heart.

In my flesh and blood, In your breath my aroma,
In your presence, your warmth, Remember you forever,
Read and analyse, Missing My Love, Oh Come to my Aid,
As I stop here, My Love I Lost you In This Decade.

Broken

Suddenly, we have fallen apart,
Run out of choices, Run out of options,
Suddenly, the world as we knew it, is lonely without you,
No more days, Now only Slumber, and my eyes flow like the morning dew.

No hope, No sunshine here,
Like a kid I cry, My toy is broken, My favorite pencil is lost,
I love you so much, I will miss you a lot.
And still you wonder, why? Why I wander without U.....Why?

These are notes from my book, Notes from my Jaded life,
Several Christmases ago, the story that began,
Has now come to an end, and I feel it again, Like I wrote earlier, The pain, But my Past is all I have and I don't underestimate its Power.

The natural tendency of humans to adapt and evolve, Is sometimes a desperate attempt to live,
But Why do I? I have lost my life with you, moving on? You think this is worth moving on.
A wait worth decades and I move on over a 'Fact of Life', Hell No.
'You' are worth killing for, worth dying for, worth going to hell for.........

Still i will wait, I will wait till the end of days,
Till you feel it too, Till you feel its special, No one can love you more than me,
No one knows who you are, Know one knows who we are.
Our secret will get lost in time, and thats when our timeless reality begins.

We are a mistake that happened to be born in this age,
We should have been on a battlefield, slinging an Axe over those who want to defy us,
Slaying them for they are against us, We team up and We defeat them all. Together we stand, Divided We Fall.

Wake up and we still rest our heads on each other, We were lying,
I was lying, The ultimate Truth is no man can love you more.
I give you away, Give you for you, For your love for those whom you love.
And may I be forgotten, May my insignificant life be erased by your reality.
My dreams, Poems, love, life, may all be Forgotten, And all this be gone down in history as Broken.

Smile Here Pinky

Punish me, I am your medium, I feel soulless,
I am in a state of trance, Where you left me,
Where we left each other, And searching is not an option,
I can't forget you, You will never be lost.

The dreams still make my sub conscious weary,
I hold you so close to me, And the world is ending,
Feeling you in my lips, Your breath is like life exhales into me,
And that is my purpose, my life is in you....hope you still have it.

The birds are circling round me, mourning at my shadow,
A country with just one man, I spent a decade searching for peace,
I found you, I found it in your kiss, in your whispers,
In your calm shoulders, In your light brown eyes.

With Fire in my soul and life in my lips,
I cry out in my heart, I can feel you reading me, I can imagine you looking at that snap,
Each drop inside, is equal to a billion tonnes inside me,
Its no pain, Its a massacre.

And there is no news to rejoice, The comedian died,
Angelo is here, Oh I am serious now, Still wanting to meet Pinky,
Life sure is with you what I live in is its shadow,
You took mine away, and now Pinky here you Smile.

Decrypt Me

Lies....All Lies..I really thought when you said,
Ask and I will give you, Love and everything else,
Crying as you left, No option I had, But to,
Encrypt myself again. Surround me with hate So!

They all said, you should have fought more,
A war I bled, A river that I cried for,
I limb that I lost, A Throat that was soar,
Love is smitten me, since a long time ago.

I close me. From this world. From any one,
who enters me, who tries to gain passage,
I understand, I do now, its all Fassad,
Nowhere to find, a canvas that was well painted with me.

Jigsaw Puzzle, is what my scrambled codes look like,
No one can decrypt me, I closed myself, I did,
From anyone, No one SO I don't say You're the one.
No its not true, its always been Fun.

I miss calling you, I miss spending time,
I miss going to your ears and whispering, Saying loads of
Things that put a smiley, on that fairy face,
Your beauty is like a reason for me to live, My Poison.

I lock them away, I don't want to understand,
I feel like a child and so do you,
You know what you want, But are scared, What do to do?
May be they know it best, you think.

Well, I swear Before I met you I fell, so many times,
You fell so many times, and They didn't know about it,
Then why don't you give it a try with me.
I promise I will not let you go ever. Never.

I let you slip through my fingers in 2000,
SO close but I let you go, Again, 2009 you came into my life,
I was successful in making you mine, But I lost you again,
A Thought that I was fighting a war only if you want me too.

But I guess, it was my life, that I didn't fight for,
You had become my everything. You have become my past present and Future.
And so I close myself, Shutting me down is the easiest way,
SO you don't decrypt me anymore, And my love, Our Love gets lost forever anyway.

When You Come Back

There was a time, the good times were good,
They lasted long, But not long enough,
Far away I was from that impossible breath of freedom,
And you were gone, before I realized, That you were here to stay forever.

I constantly debate the existence of our lives,
A life full of grief of loosing, Loosing good times,
Priced possessions, People, Places, age, tastes, climates,
we are not happy with riches, we are never happy forever.

Mind me in saying, We never win any battles,
We are weak and peril human insects,
Bound to be ruled by the existence of a higher being,
Something we debate, but carefully analyze and believe relentlessly.

Far from our goals there is a perfect crime, happening each day,
In our minds in our hearts, In the breath we take, In the heart that beats,
We fall short for every kindness we deserve,
Still we expect, that the judgment day may go like a walk in the park.

All is felt like lost, no more battles, no more fresh water,
Quenching my thirst? why, Is there a reason to live?
The skies turn dark, Like a sandstorm, rising from the east,
I can't see anymore, My lost hope, is now a lost thought.

Then an explosion happens, Magnitude of biblical propositions,
Like the sitar of the Carnatic music, when struck,
The ground shakes, The vibration inside me, The atomic energy unleashed,
The massive reaction, triggered in to the atmosphere, NO sound, No emotions, No thoughts, Only Awe, COz It was U.

Breathless, Like Heart beats a skip, In temporary transition,
Feels like I have no body anymore, a higher reason, a higher power,
Celestial powers, rise me, I rise, No thoughts, No fears, Complete peace,
Feels Like a Thousand Orgasm, Packed in to one great explosion inside me, continuous, non-stop, Imagine That!

And I rise, No more breath needed, no more life needed, No beats,
No more walking, No more touch, No hands nor feet,
Suddenly, nothing is measurable, No time and space continuum,
The Quantum of relativity, is no longer in effect, And you know why,
I find out As I say this.

I have risen, I can see you, Feel you,
I can feel you forever now, I can have you forever now,
No power stops me, The power has become me, I don't belong to this world anymore,
I feel like, like...... I am back coz I love you, and I missed you a lot, I was waiting and now it's over, Coz you are back.

Leave Me Behind

Speed of light is all you need, To fly away from me,
This present is full of warm emotions, But this is my reality,
I feel you near, can't express in words, But I miss you a lot,
How do I know, you miss me too, Why do I feel this Pain?

Keep my joys, Keep my Luck, Give me your Sorrows,
Give me all your bad omen, Take my life, But this Love I borrow,
I feel lonely here, without you, Without you the nights scare me,
There is no one out there, I reached out to touch you.....But

I do my part, I give myself in sacrifice, To the Gods unknown,
No Victory, No Love, This Power descended from above, But I am not a God
Like you, I am weak, I am peril, My understanding is weakening me,
My Love for you grows, But I pay the cost. Me!

I guess, My time is up, This world was but a means to get you to me,
Now I have you, And I realized I should not have let you go.
I find my peace in you. You are my true God. My Religion.
My hope, My Song, My Smile, My Jesus, My Ram, My Allah.

I guess, this is the furthest I can go, I have lost my way,
I find myself left behind, You are God, Traveling by the speed of light,
Tried to catch up, I guess my body is weak and full of fright.
In reverence I bow down, I Still Love You, But Leave Me Behind.

The further we go, The roads shall get worse,
I am a warrior, And You are my angel, But gazing at the millions,
I tremor, Baby, Love is War, You Fight You Win, each time every time, For US.
You are the ruler of my heart, That's why accept my Sacrifice.

I am dying now, The Gods have heard me, They cry in regret,
My Body turns to dust, withering my feet, my fingers, Into Sand they turn,
Each part slowly withers, All that remains is my Heart, That still Burns,
Your Love is still in me, Like Its Greek Mythology.

I swear I will walk past you as a ghost, For times to come,
Just to be with you, close to you, Protecting you,
In Loving you, I find my purpose, My wish is that you Win,
Your Sweet love lives in me, My Love, I Pass Away.....its time, Leave Me Behind.

Walk WIth You

The sweet smell of you on me, On my shirt,
It doesn't seem to wear off, Not yet,
Reminding me there is still a long way to go,
This love, this chance is beautiful, To Walk With you.

Walking from Alpha to Omega, You touching me,
Your soft shoulders, still make the rounds of my brain,
The Cerebral, sends thousand signals down South,
My legs get simulated, and I dream that Walk With you.

We have Pizza together, We have Popcorn,
2012 is coming, And we both need to run,
As you held my hand, watching the rocks falling from the sky,
I knew you were mine, From now on I want to Walk With you.

Red light, Green Light, Shine by us,
The day I left you, I realised that in my life you are a must,
And I still live in the Past, for You Baby, The Best thing that happened,
And I feel Special, Coz You are My Special One, And again I Feel I Walk With you.

As the days of the beginning, I heard U2 and I smiled,
The nights were crazy and the days were wild,
I used to dream of heavens when I was a child,
I guess its better than Heaven, Feels like God, when I Walk With you.

So come back to me, With all you might, let not you be scared,
All the days of my life I have strayed, without the right path,
I feel you are within me now, As i Tell you that I love you,
You are sweet honey, And I Love you more now, And forever I wanna Walk With you.

Making Love At 60kmph

Its evening, and there is traffic on the roads,
Engines raging, The Suzukis, Hondas and Fords,
We are in a cab, sitting in anticipation,
Oh! Doctor when will you move, and start your Operation.

Last night I was wanting to speak to you,
I wanted to make myself get lost into you,
Your eyes are brown, and your eyeliners Blue,
I guess now we are about to do something new.

We talk about us, about Delhi & Mumbai,
I want to travel to Jaipur, by road, rail or sky,
But you stop me, you have a very important week ahead of you,
The traffic is moving and am lost, Have no clue.

Lights turning green and red, Your eyes are sparkling,
There is a reason why you are with me, You are about to find out,
This moment I was waiting for so long,
Now it has arrived, It has, We love each other, and its here.

I take my hand and put it around your shoulder,
I come close to you, Your eyes glowing with love,
You tell me you love me, I come close to you, We kiss,
A Fire, A Rage, Engines around us racing, the lights are green.

My hands moving on you, as a boat on a lake,
I feel like cream, on a baked cake,
You are like my Ice cream soda, and I am the shake,
Be mine forever, Please for Heaven's sake.

You are in my arms, I am with the most beautiful girl,
This love is making me want to go wild,
And that's when you smile, You say Your are all mine,
Its like the monsoons have arrived again, and there is no sun to shine.

We are going faster, Our hearts beating faster,
I kiss you everywhere, and you are going crazy,
You tell me you want me, And I want you too, You bite me,
And I am going mad, So much love, So little time.

We are about to reach your house, You rest on my lap,
I kiss you again, I don't care about the world,
I just want you to know, Travel to your place, Or get you here is my motto,
I kiss you goodbye and You leave with my photo.

The world didn't see it, But now you hear,
The world didn't experience it, But we did and it was special,
It kills me each day, I love you more than more,
And i will miss you so much, Until next time.......

Raga Megha

No, don't think....Just read with nothing in your mind,
I have a lot to express, but no words inside,
My love is like an ocean, can't measure it, no,
Smiling away I tell you, you are in my mind and in my heart,
Here's where our love story starts.

The voices echoing your name,
You are my warrior princess, the Pinky Dame,
I feel like I sit there in your temple,
Worshiping you, and imagining we were together,
Each second, minute, moment, forever and ever.

When you wear that lipstick, turns me on to no end,
Your smell so immaculate, that it just makes me transcend,
A really high emancipation, Like my souls resurrection,
My heart longs for your touch,
Your love in my arms and your affection.

I start this Raga,
The beauty of nature, the flowing of rain clouds,
Blowing on to me, the sweet smell f your sweat,
Droping down, and traveling through your skin,
wetting your body, which i am touching now, Your are my Megha.

Like the rains, we are making the most and getting wet,
You and me, are cold, we hunt for shelter,
Your looking at my wet shoulders, you wanna rest on them,
I look at your perspiring lips, i want to sink into them,
Your my rain cloud of the Gods, you are my Raga Megha.

And I will sing this again, I feel it when i sing to you,
each day every day, my eyes wet in love and wait,
I cant see you touch you feel you, Is this love?
Its like worshiping a God you can't see, your my God,
You are love sent to me from the heavens, You are my Raga Megha.

A Moment

I stop walking in the middle of the road,
The world is moving fast, and doesn't stop,
On a survival, which I rely for my only hope,
Dreaming bout you, My hands reaching out to you,
And All That I need Is A Moment with you.

Wish you were here, and you forgot what it was to be lonely,
Jaipur, Reliance, Mumbai, Vodafone, Calling you Solely,
Fixing my mind, Fixating on ya voice on my bluetooth,
ANd you telling me, remind me of having food,
And I Swear, All That I need Is A Moment with you.

Crying, not crying really, not literally, not figuratively,
Making noises that no one can hear, But for you its Tiwari,
Drive you crazy, a driver who is pro in making chai,
Talking about loving you, holding you kissing you, though am shy,
I propose, And All That I need Is A Moment with you.

Floods and Fires come and go, Nothing to hide all you know,
All ya ABCs of the past, never ever could show,
A feeling i promise, a world so mystical that you will see,
An experience which no one else will ever know, but you,
COz you are the one, And All That I need Is A Moment with you.

And when the night arrives, 11pm is my calling time,
Till I drop dead on my sofa, Its 3am and I cant get enough of you,
Wish you were in my arms, When I tell you, How much I love you,
And still when you read this, you experience a strange feeling, 'Missing You',
Miss you now, And All That I need Is A Moment with you.

Every light in the house is blinking, with my bluetooth in my ear,
Every morning, when i go to class and I steer,
Redemption in you, watching me, imagining me, sitting on my couch,
Thinking....You dancing on the stairs of ya hostel, and falling...OUCH!
Needing you so dear, And All That I need Is A Moment with you.

I am trying my best with the people that I know,
But how do i get you here, I am still thinking HOW?
You read me, You Love me, Your love in me, and my phone beeps for you,
But when you lost your phone, I still keep calling, See your name on my Phone,
Fool Am I for you, Coz All That I need Is A Moment with you.

You’re Beautiful

I close my eyes, staring into the darkness,
No thoughts, No melodies, No imagination,
When a small image of you appears,
My heart beats slowly, dawning this realization.

Your image floating in my ocean of darkness,
Flying on to the screen, your picture of you smiling,
Your shy eyes and see there perfectly lies,
The secret of your beauty beaming.

Your face, so bright that my darkness,
Fills with your light and that pink lips,
So perfect like the horizon tips,
Makes me look at you more intensely.

You wrote for me, and I love them,
No one in the world has written me a poem,
But ya love for me came as a confession,
In ya denial, which seemed to be your decision.

So what do we know about us,
After I met you just once,
My heart & mind, my imagination & my feelings,
Cry out an encore; Make me yours, only yours.

The changing course of life, smites me with surprise,
Lost had I 9 months ago, Lost had you some time ago.
But nothing of it now seems important, you have me,
All I want to say is believe me. It’s true.

Passing my love from conversation to conversation,
Planning my trip from airport to station, Frustration!
Nothings coming out of my plan, how do I make you mine?
Charge me of guilt, but i want to sleep with you in your Quilt.

And as I touch you gently, the passion exceeds my understanding,
From your hair that flows down to your shoulder,
I look at each curve in ya body, slowly you undressing,
Like a path that leads to a hidden treasure.

Once upon a time I wanted to know,
What love was? But love is there where you want it to be,
You just have to watch it unwrapping, like a chocolate,
From the seconds of your beautiful life.

I know you are the most beautiful thing that happened to my life,
And you are slowly and steadily, unfolding into a story,
You are so beautiful, I wanted to remain in my dream,
Where I freeze you, in the ‘time spin’ realm.

And Baby, if you don’t stop for a minute,
You will miss that beautiful second, where I was looking at you,
With so much love that your beauty brightens and sparkles,
You can’t see me but I can see you, I love you, in loving you,
I am frozen in your moment.

Click Here To Make Me Happy

Can't believe what I just read,
I don't feel like going to bed,
Hands are shaking and I am all red,
Finally its all there, and not just in my head.

I don't believe I will be quoting JayZ,
Thank you Thank you You're Far to Kind, says he,
I don't know how it is for you but for me it ain't easy,
I don't feel like going home, shrinking in my seat, feeling lazy.

Probably am mad, and am way too crazy,
My stomach is shivering and my eyes are going hazy,
My balance is slipping, and I am feeling dizzy,
Don't wana disturb you, You might be busy.

Roaming around and all I can see,
The roads are empty and I am all lonely,
Trains not working and I am getting cranky,
Want to weep and cry loudly, But don't have a hanky.

The boats sinking and the captain is dead,
The war is over and the blood is shed,
Ambient music playing, whispering in my head,
Lost everything, No one to care, as I said.

Return of the devils of the past,
Just to go back to the grave at last.
Silence of the lambs, Silent at last,
The world of ours is ending, ending too fast.

At last, no one to spare, but me to bear,
The life in me, wearing down, Easing down the excitement,
An explosion, A Hydrogen Bomb, Will finish me straight & snappy,
Please I beg of you, Click that Countdown button, An Make me happy.

MA AM...?

I wake up every morning thinking of the night,
That passed by me n what I dint say to u, was it right.
The cold morning breeze reminds me of u too,
But Angelo, my dear..

You came late that evening, I was upset Yes,
I thought I didn't care, if u did come or no.
But when u left, u left staring into my eyes,
U took my heart why dint you take me too.
Angelo…

I am restless when I don't hear you,
Like Maggie boiling In hot water,
How does he know me from within, knows everything.
But I dunno why I like the feeling too..
But Angelo...

U joke around, I kid with u.
Never thought u n me..it's a reality so untrue,
But time with you seems just perfect
Can I give myself to u..?
I teach myself...

The butterflies in ma tummy,
The palms under chin,
The waiting eyes to see your blog,
The glee when u ping,
The texting was fun.
N the long chats too,
But When u call me PINKY!
I wish I didn't want to love you,
Angelo..

Im sorry if I made you wait.
The confession is here before you,
U also must forgive me when I say this
That Angelo,
I Can Not love you.

MAAM In JAM

Used to Wake up every morning thinking of the night,
That passed by me and what i said to you, was it true.
The cold morning breeze tastes like a Persian delight,
An I still have you thinking what is MAAM in JAM.

I was late for our meeting, COz something urgent came up,
I didn't wana tell you, it wud have upset u as much,
Lots of thinks happening with me, You have no idea,
And I think a little more and I can tell you what's MAAM In JAM.

I know you were upset, sorry I made you wait,
You smelt like a sweet Jasmine dipped in wild honey,
When I look at you, I remember of exotic fruits,
With which someday I can tell you my fantasies, of MAAM In JAM.

You were smiling when you saw me, Sigh of relief,
'It was definitely something what i had in mind', you thought,
And not what I had painted of me, But still you didn't talk to me,
Your warmth still overwhelms me, You and I we both can be, MAAM In JAM.

Watching Your pink lips, I know your favorite color is Pink,
Your like a doll, waiting to be adored, Like milkshake, You want to be mixed,
Wild and crazy, Like a tinge of Vodka in it, Apricots and African Lemon,
I wanted to reach out to you, Kiss you, Taste those immaculate lips, when we do MAAM IN JAM.

The perspiring Glass of Cold Coffee, the straw touching your lips,
That memory is stuck in my mind, Till the heavens show me a better site,
You look at me and you smile, I lost my heart that moment in time,
I live, In that frozen moment, The moment of MAAM In JAM.

When you laugh its like the Heaven above have showered,
Like the Rains on a barren deserts, pouring for hours,
Hot and Sweet feeling inside me when i write this,
Your touch, like the Chinese Silk, Waiting, waiting anxiously for MAAM In JAM.

And when you were leaving, I had fired up my lungs,
You were looking at me, Gazing at my actions, Dreaming about something,
I looked at your eyes, I came close to you, I wanted to kiss you,
My Heart pulsating, That's when MAAM In JAM began.

If I shot a movie, I will call it JAM, for obvious reasons,
I guess you still thinking, what it is, Gimme ya no. and I will solve this puzzle,
Bombay feels lonely without you now, I got used to messaging so frequently,
But Your Gone, DAM! But Love, I am All yours waiting for you my honey and JAM, For our Final MAAM In JAM.

Dil Me Gha

Close your eyes, Close your sight, close your mind,
Close all your senses, Close that mind from thinking,
Stop searching what you can't find,
I am closer to you than you think.

Don't Believe what you see, Don't Believe what you hear,
Love is staring at you, Love is whispering in your ear,
Without meeting you, I have fallen in love,
And I am going mad for you girl.

Don't let this time pass, Don't try to make any sense,
Let this miracle take away your self defense,
Show me your path, let me enter your heart,
My heart is gone, But the question when are you giving me ya heart.

I don't wana sleep, I dont wana waste a night,
Looking at the stars and thinking about you,
While you stare at the same stars that very night,
The flame in me is alive, ANd i want to but I cant survive.

Don't try to hide, Let your heart decide, A revolution has started,
I will fight for you, I will get Knighted,
Protecting your war, Your love, your heart,
Its mine now for the taking, Mine to protect.

No games to play, No races to win,
I have loved you and that's where it all begins,
I can feel you around me, In me, your words singing,
Still echoing, I am loving this awesome feeling.

I want to stay in the dark, All candles blown,
Dont wana be sighted by this world, My heart you own,
I swear, Deep in ANgelo, A fire is still burning,
An Eternal Raga, I sing For You DIl ME GHA.

An Electric Promise

My Heart Beating slowly, nanoseconds in counting,
Viscous substance rushing in and out and flowing,
Brain waves moving in like a magnetic field,
Your messages updating my ailing heart like an RSS feed.

I believe in you, I am here waiting for you,
One word of certainty, and I fall down on my knees,
To Greet the Queen of Hearts, specially mine,
I think about you, every second, every day n night.

I feel like freezing the time, When i read your texts,
The moment, my only connection to you, so intense.
So many emotions in my head, releasing so many glands,
I wanto keep reading you, freezing me & my hands.

Slow and steady wins this race, but Patience is the Ace,
you told me, you taught me, teacher,
Your voice still making rounds in my head like a meter,
One day, more things to accomplish, leagues to enter.

If I was time, I would have made you mine,
And each hour minute second, seven eight nine,
I wanto make you feel like you are mine,
I will be holding you close to me all the time.

Jan Feb March, I miss you more, more than much,
So much said in such a short interaction,
You can imagine the fire in me, burning in action,
Reversing time, back to the Past, I just wana tell you you were already in my heart.

Rhythms of the deep blue sea, Smashing across the horizon,
Singing in my heart, the love songs within.
All night i am awake, dreaming about you,
Waiting endlessly the day when I meet you.

Electric is your words, Running like a Pulse through me,
The winds are choosing to ignore me,
Skip a Beat and I am dead,
Either you love me too, Or is it all in my head.

Toxic like substance piercing my heart,
Tossing the keys, from end to start,
Promise to write a love song, Is here its now,
lonely roads bid me a farewell bow.

Doc a patient is waiting for you,
Who is mad and crazy about you,
Please make me a Promise,
That you will be just in time.

The Promise that will define new paths,
The Promise that will be from the beginning, and the start
Will resurrect you and me in eternal bliss,
A Promise as spectacular as a cosmic event, Like An Electric Promise.

To Free You

'R u Dre', meaning are you there,
Comes the question, in reverence and patience somewhere,
Killing me. Life is confusing, mystery sparks,
Chalte Chalte I realized more or less, when it all starts.

Going back to the oldest emotion, felt for a new prey,
Heart pounding more than usual, red black & grey,
Even Superman fell in love, Should i wait or leave,
Waiting is risky, and so is leaving, i believe.

Someones feeling the pinch in the heart now,
I have not even seen you, But my heart screams wow.
Feels like no option is open, But to meet you once,
I never moved from that old path, its been quite a while since.

You were sitting on the first bench, that old memory simulates,
I walked into the class, starts the intertwining of our fates,
You smiled at me, that's the moment i can never forget,
I sat on the same bench as you, and you didn't object.

For me its like all happened yesterday,
But for you its like walking through a foggy day,
The bright lights suddenly shining on me like destiny,
May be fate has weaved a story for you and me.

Like a rider on a bike travelling so fast,
The wind blows on his face, soo much too last,
ride me to the heavens with you i proclaim,
A wonderful world shall we make is what they claim.

But I here is not in the present or past,
The world is ending so lets get together fast,
Each moment that we love each other you wont loose,
All I want to ask of you is to step into my shoes.

Promising you not the heavens but a beautiful life,
Which i want to live with you, loving you till i survive,
Mark my words that you will remember one day,
My love is steadfast, secure and here to stay.

I will be always there to pick you when you fall,
Even if I am soo drunk in the influence of alcohol,
In Love I found my drug, and you are the Doc to treat me,
And one word from you is all I need to set you free.

I cry out to you, but you can't hear me,
Its the wind, I guess my sound waves dont reach thee,
Is it Love? Shining bright right here in my armor for you,
The victory will be ours, If you stand by my side To Free You.

Love On Facebook

Right to left, your eyes are moving,
The time you login, the moment I see you available,
I wana chat, Every inch of your profile I am seeing,
Falling in love each second, Amazing and Unbelievable.

I paste something on your Wall,
A reply comes and My heart rejoices,
This could be that true love, or just another fall,
But I don't care, I wana loose myself in your Face.

I wana Cook, some Pasta for you,
Call you for Dinner, at my place,
I serve you wine, I ask you like old or new,
You Love that old one, We sip, the night feels like space.

We both are alone, You and me in one room,
We are talking about politics, sports, computers,
After a while, You say its late and wanna go home,
I want you to stay, And I know even you, prankster.

We start watching a movie, It was called Unbreakable,
You dare to watch a scary flick, I know you are scared,
Your company with me is irreplaceable,
you want to hold me tight, your face turns red.

We both are watching the movie and we are half way through,
Suddenly you creep and you hold my hand tight,
My arms go around you, I am holding you close to me,
Somehow you are relieved, relieved from your fright.

I wanted you to go home, You wanted to stay back,
Just as I start explaining my point of view,
You come close to me and kiss me, Fuk,
She kissed, you are kissing me, I am kissing her, My love.

Since then we are in love, Since then Love was personified,
We still chat on facebook, We still Watch scary movies,
She comes back on my wall post and still gets horrified,
She still tells me she is going home, and we still cuddle at my home.

So this was my tribute to My love and Facebook,
No promotion only Salutations to get you hooked
On to this service that lives with you and breathe,
Coz if you love someone, And you write a love song,
Someone somewhere will always read.

Sophisticated Target

/HTML notations, see you reading me,
Notifying the time and day you read or browse this page,
Collecting this information is not what i want from thee,
The machine does what AI says, AI within my courage/

Each digital beep, Each Binary recorded,
Makes a sound, a frequency, a detailed path,
Location to Location, only careful analysis can decrypt it.
Visually to your eye its Ones and Zeroes, but they are the beats of my heart.

My mood swings, from ups and down of life,
All the women I want, leave, The others make me cry,
My heart escalated the beats, new target sighted, Sigh!
Bother me not now, I feel i am gonna die in your arms tonight.

There's one thing I know about Radioactive chemicals,
There is more than one that you carry with you,
My Alliance with AI is struggling, My Mood is ironical.
Anxiously I wait, You walk away when you know I want you.

Hacking into you personality is like breaking a Cypher,
The level of Encryption keeps going higher,
Moments ago I was all secure, now I feel I am Vulnerable,
Feel like Superman, & his weakness is Cryptonite.

5 minutes of glory, lasts lesser in your case,
There so much, so much more to your face,
I quickly switch to plan B,
Calm myself, with precious advice, 'Patience is the Key'

I wait like a Jaguar on his prey,
My Supersonic AWACS in the sky, you have no way to go,
My army is stealth-ed, Bravo teams on highest alert,
You move, you are mine, you flee, you die.

And then something strange happens,
Message from a strange Source fills my AI,
I am pushed back into the past, Pushed back to ancient lands,
My path is distorted, my army disoriented, all plan fails.

Each of targets gets away like this,
No man to blame, Machines are in the likeness of humans,
They can be controlled and swayed,
No more explosion, I am gonna platy it cool.

No more games, No way but my way.
Alpha Bravo CHarlie Delta,
Mission or no Mission, Life is not a war zone,
you gotta run, you gotta face it, no stealth will protect you.

Be what you can, but Be you is the key,
Options are many chances are few, Learn your way to the top,
Life is simpler than you think, well my AI is up,
Lets get back to living the life in a battle field.

/My existence is this way, One goes another will come,
I will wait till thy Kingdom come,
Blow me apart, you have all the guns, I am the Target,
But I leave myself, My Precious Self for you, you shall never forget/

Explode

Every minute a boy is falling in love,
Every second a man is looking for the one,
Everyone is looking, Not looking above,
The ordinary, the simple, the sex, the fun.

Frightening is the thought, when I think,
Ranging from filthy movies, songs & shit,
With anger I sometimes just want to shout,
For enough of looking at you, I cry out.

This Universe is looking at my Valor,
The Gods are envying my bravery,
Like a gladiator on a horse I rode.
Riding all the way, Till the end of your road.

And when you come to an end,
For me life becomes a bitch,
A cut, a bruise, a tear which could not be stitched,
That's when I decided Love is a myth.

Fragile am I, And you break me,
But I got this, I got this.
I was broken,But how do you move on. How?
You cant, but you must, for the sake of evolution.

Goodbye Sweetheart, Goodbye,
I was the only one, who could,
Have loved you the most.
Given you love, my life, unconditionally.

There is nothing right and nothing wrong,
You may stop reading my bleeding song,
The love that I had has died.
Its like a cosmic event, where two stars collide.

And the galaxy looks brighter,
A yesterday almost forgotten,
A today that I lied, to myself,
But a tomorrow, where time will be on my side.

The seeds of my new life has been sowed,
My army is ready, with all their load,
I guess there was one mistake that you did in this world,'
Which was leaving me, treating me, feeding me, JUST TO EXPLODE.

Raga ANgelo

Songs of the rivers flowing down the Godavari river,
Sunlight rising, throwing less than i anticipate,
The clouds grow thicker, the winds move slower,
Dark like the beginning of that rainy day, sometime in the past.

Long has it been, since my mind has visited that forbidden memory,
Past, are they, dark as this rainy day, like the music of sweet rhythms of the flute,
Outside my window as I look, I find the rain gods unleashing their fury,
The Perfect sight, The perfect moment for my conscience to elude.

Reason enough to tell you, my falling in love again,
To an angel, her speech like the divine providence,
Watch her smile, you want to devote your life to make her happy over and over again,
Her sweet aroma, like the purest honey, as pure as the flower essence.

Listening to her is the reason why I live, and I don't speak,
The sweetest Flute runs dry, but i may not stop listening to her,
Her face like milk, like the clouds from the heavens, or the snowcapped everest peak,
Your eyes like mating of a thousand galaxies, looking at you, my heart beat sours.

If I may, Build a temple of imagination, to worship you, my divine Goddess of Love,
Living is a reason to love you, to adore your beauty, to feed you with the fruits of happiness,
May I be your servant, for life, worshipping your divinity for life,
Offering fresh figs and exotic drinks for your holy diet, May be I am crazy, forgive for my craziness.

Your soft touch, you bright face, Love increases each moment I look at you,
You don't know, you are so precious, so special, so Immaculate, so perfect,
The creator thought a thousand years to make a masterpiece, which personifies in you,
The Gods crave for your sight, the angels are jealous, the flowers want to smell like you, Why? Its no secret, you are perfect.

The birds want to sing like you, the sun wants to be as bright as you, the moon wants to be your eyes,
The wind blows through your hair, slowly, they move your long black hair, beauty doesn't know you are its inspiration,
Singing like they do each day, the angels sing to you, to impress you, oh Goddess,
The rain drops fall on me, like your love filling me from the outside, the inside, the raga of love is here for my fixation.

You are so far, like seven seas apart, but today i feel you even closer than myself,
Inside my temple of love singing with the flute, the veena and the tabla,
My mind sings, my heart rejoices, my eyes are dreaming and my mind is imagining,
My Goddess, Some gifts I bring forth to offer you, Me and My Love Raga.

Rap n Rolla

This is a rap song, for all those sick and hungry of love,
for all who called me to save ye souls from those whores and pimps,
making life hell each day, like a virus in ye bum,
i call out to all u desperate and in need come follow my path, so lets hit it..

the beats go thum thum, my heart goes hump hump, tere payal goes chan chan, and the winds blow sunn sunn,
maine dekhe bohaut sare, tere jaiso ke hai mare, ab khunnas mat dikha, jaa mummy ko jaake apna chot dikha.

i aint the greatyest rap star, nor am i the worst yaar, lekin jab jab gabar paida hoga, tab tab mein rap karega aur basanti nachega, an if u dont believe me, check our motherfukin history, each life ravana has ruled, the ideal one has come forth to derail his rule.

each generation has an overdose of love hate and sex, sala music bhi hota hai aajkal remix, mix or no mix, sab chutiya log karta hai same things, copy copy and more copy, jaise baap ne he sikhiya hai sabhi..

muvee bhi kiya hai copy, banaya sab kuch hota hai, naam diya kuch kuch hota hai,
pura sala story was shot in our des, and penchod put the name of muvee as pardes,
sala aur ek english muvee ka kiya copy,
to kaat dena sub logo ka puny, mard hai toh original script likh...

well such bolu toh apna generation ka fault nahin, sala modernisation ke gand me hain itna khujli,
ki accept naa karo to kehte hai, hum hain uncool and tamatar nahi, hai uska puure..
Kitna karu mein charas aur ganja,
duniya mein love ke alawa bhe hai bohot sa chara.

so guys and gals listening to my rap song, ek sach bata du,
sala duniya mein bohot saare milenge, bohot saare bechdenge,
but the one who is the smartest and the strongest, only he will be the one drinkin the last sip of cola,
smiling and winkin he will be known as the real RapnRolla.

Crysis

Hate is baggage, Life is too short to be pissed off,
I and Julius don't want to fight anymore, not anymore for her,
Screaming at each other, we just ask why, why are we so pissed off,
With life, love, work, no answer, coz we asked the wrong questions.

Our life is revolving around people, or are we revolving around them,
We have one choice and there are many options, picking one,
is not the best of the lot, but is what we have destined ourselves,
And then crying over broken pieces is a waste.

I don't want to carry this baggage, I want to make others happy,
Selfishness is not what we are here for, Let us make this world,
Like ourselves, or change ourselves to be like them, Change is not bad,
We crying over our lives and cursing others is.

May be the questions that I asked were wrong, that's why i never got any answers,
My questions were why its happening to me, why am I so lonely,
Realization, has made me better, life has taught me to question my existence,
Have I affected my life in the right way, has my life done any good to others?

Sincerely I say to you, You ask and you will never receive,
You will seek and still not find, and you knock but the doors will never open,
Past are the ages when humans gave themselves to God, we forget we are,
The gods of this age, we question our lives, we wont get an answer, never.

You shall find solace in asking, have I made you happy enough to remember,
Have I taken your sorrows away, Was he so into me that I just didn't think of anyone else,
Verify the life, ANalyse your existence, ANswer yourself,
No one will answer the question you ask, Not even God.

Either you die in pain, or live longer to get over it and smile,
Please don't cry, please live it happy, oceans are waiting to be explored,
Universes waiting since the beginning of time for you, Reality is just a verifiable fact,
But once its verified, all that remains in life is Crysis.

Burn Down The Nilgiris

Burn down the Nilgiris,
Pollute the water from the sacred Ganges.
Level all the pilgrim mounts,
Things are getting worse, each day, Man.

The ruins of our salvation will lie,
Like the ancestors left us the signs,
We morons don't understand,
They have burnt my nature scarred with their unholiness.

Smash the glasses, burn the paper, bring down buildings,
Life as we speak is distantly getting diminished,
The words of charity, are holding me back, but the love for nature is why I speak,
Stop, Stop your unholy ways, A prophet says.

Each tree we vaporize, each lake that we dry,
A scar we leave behind, and She never forgets the scars,
Her love for us is degrading, each day, each hour, each second.
Rise up, Rise up against them, stop this brutal murder, or we may not live any further.

The clock ticks, getting near is our extinction, we forget,
the sweet sounds of mother nature, we still love her,
But no respect, all she asks is a little respect, I cry out,
I plead, let me be your messenger, your guide.

She is there moaning the death for her children,
Like trees they stood, Like rivers they played,
Now they are either burnt, butchered or buried.
Love, respect, she will still give us everything, But I guess its never late,
She is there, We are here, Waiting to decide our fate.

5 Minutes of Glory

I first looked at you, You smiled,
That was my love at first sight,
Like the city of joy, rejoicing together,
May be we were destined to be together. Someday.

From that moment, i knew i wanted you,
I tried, with Him, He was my support, my guide,
Plan after plan, message after message he mastered its transportation,
He was the king, the very best at its communication.

The Digital world now seemed incomplete without you,
My world of imagination was incomplete without you,
Your eyes, your smile, the clouds above and your feet below,
Majestic, gorgeous, Supercilious, you are the Goddess of Beauty herself,
Undoubtedly.

I wanted you, but I knew it was not easy, Every plan,
you were just so amazing, that you took everything away from us,
Just left us with five minutes of glory, and we stood there,
Despaired and Stunned, never had I met an adversary so smart. So intelligent.

But if I wanted you, I had to keep up with you or had to be better than you,
I never had heard of defeat, my quest, my motivation, everything,
Had now a new name, You, I had to get you, I needed you, The final plans
were drawn, Oh you will never be defeated, neither will I not win.

Resurrection of the old gods, restoring the old sign language,
They left the signs for me, I feel, now I know, how I can get,
My precious possession, my Love, the answer to my question,
Is you, The answer is in you, and that divine answer is Music.

This was not my plan, but now had become a divine intervention,
Not just for 5 minutes of Glory, but I wait in anticipation,
That you would call me back, and soon you will, I will wait for you ever,
For ever more, Coz i have unquantified time, and it holds me no value.

And here I stand, singing you this love song,
Waiting for you, the cold winds blow through me, each time I see you,
I just go cold, at the sight of you, Oh Darling, This is no longer,
Just 5 minutes of glory, but you have made me so happy, Unexplained.

I feel its 5 eternities of Glory, Unselfish Love personified, in you.
My love, you are whom I waited for so long, and the time is here,
When I tell you how much I love, more than this world could ever worry,
Now I stand outside your gate, yet again, Welcoming in me those 5 minutes of glory.

YeZ Zir, No Zir, Thank you Zir !

Annnna ek chai, Yez Zir, Thanda Ya garam,
Arre penchot, Chai is not given cold,
OK Zir, 2 minutez, Abbe Langur, You making Chai aur maggi,
No Zir, Chai is ready, I am giving you special not saadi.

Oy Anna, Do you have Rum, Yes Zir, I do and its Garam,
Abbe teri jaat ko baida maro, Kya bol raha hai,
Yez Zir Thankyou Zir, Baida Fry coming in 2 mins too,
Cancel my order, give me only Classic milds, Zorry ZIr, Cigarette band kiya hai.

SO what the Fuck do you have rite now, Gimme me something now,
Arre sir, Aapka liye jaan bhi haazir Zir, But BMC confiscated my stove,
OK Chod, do you have bidi, Yez ZIr, latest brand, its called Welgum Zir,
Abbe chutiya its not Welgum, its Welcome, and you better learn some English man.
YeZ Zir No Zir, Thank you Zir.

Abbe why no, Zir Because hum jaisa aadmi starts talking in English,
Sala aap jaisa bada log ka complex ho jaayega, Iskelyeish,
Abbe CHodu, English seekhega, aage badega, taraki karega,
Apun ko kya karna hai Zir, Thank you Zir, But apun ko Recession nahi chaiye, Aap hich rakho Zir.

Hum Bachpan mein pada tha, Twinke Twinke little star,
Sala Bombay ko aaya, Twinkle Akshay ka hogaya, Aur sala Aasman mein no star,
Aur pada, Jonny Jonny Yez Pappa, Eating Sugar No Pappa, But Pappa got Diabetes,
And Mereko hogaya liabilities.

So Zir, I am good at selling chai and Kaapi,
APun karta nahi hai kisi ka copy, mehnat ka kamata, aur Meenakutti ko khilata,
Achcha Achcha Anna, chal paka mat, yeh le DO rupaya, Sala kal chai time pe banana.
Yez Zir, Thank you Zir, ab jaata Anna Khane Khana.

Feel Me From Inside

The magic of Love, touching you, healing you,
Making that sweet smell even sweeter,
Coz it just turned my bed into one with roses,
Its like Jesus has risen again, but hey its not Easter.

Making the feeling more precious, Escaping all the worries,
The world has got a lot of them, people ready to sink in,
And as the famous poet keeps filling his diaries,
I write to make you feel, my love from inside.

And besides the bottles of water we threw at each other,
Water slowly rushing down your body, we coming closer, together,
The rains drops make me mad, the fire in you as in me,
Drives me closer to you, touching you, lift up your eyes and you see.

Creating mysteries from the heavens above, the world is watching,
Waiting for us to go out, in love and live happily every after,
Craving the love in us, they drown in their own sadness,
Love her so much, as you love yourself or even more, said my Father.

For eternally we were destined to be one, Feel me inside you,
Feel me around you, feel me, for no world can make you happy like me,
The eyes are shutting, the tears are dropping, the craze in me filling you,
I just want to settle on Mars, I want to just be alone with you.

Flying like the dove, pieces of chocolate crumbs,
Tasty is you, my gift, my pleasure is in you,
Feel my love in you like the sweetness of sugar cubes in honey,
So much pleasure, I can't take, But I want more, more inside me.

Leave this world, come with me to Mars,
No race no religion, nothing holds any bar,
Love is on my mind, my heart, in my outside, in my inside,
I know you want me now, want to feel me, feel me from inside.

Dismantled

Stop all the clocks, Cut off the telephone lines,
Prevent the dogs from barking, And just keep going,
Silence the Pianos, And rip off the drums,
Bring out the coffin, As the moon has come.

Let the Aeroplane circle, mourning over my head,
Scribbling in the sky, the message, He is Dead.
Fill crate bowls with the whiteness of the public dumps,
Earth traffic peacens, with their black cotton gloves.

You were my North, my South, My East and West,
My working week and My Sunday rest,
My Noon, My Midnight,
My Talk, My Song.

I thought this love would last forever,
I was wrong, the stars are not wanted now,
Filth out everyone, Pack up and run,
Lets Dismantle the Sun.

Pour away the ocean, and sweep up the roof,
'Coz nothing here can count for any good,
A lot has been wasted over one word,
Kill that peaceful being, let it fly like a bird.

A sweet aroma, A stink from nowhere,
A pleasurable ecstasy, A remorseful encounter,
Both coins the same fate, May it be love may it be hate,
Crying makes both the rich and poor weak.

Love is not what we look for, Lust is what we greed,
Like mosquitoes, we fly, like dogs we breed,
Life is all but a spark of light, shining on the owl,
Feels no different, whether its day or night.

Work your magic elsewhere, Make your beauty the beast,
Life is faster than you think, so make haste,
He shall decide, This love has ended, fast or gradual,
Matter not for me, Love and I both have got Dismantled.

Anna Ganna Manna

Found the answer, Yes, I have , damn, 9 years I searched and I felt like a looser,
9 desperate years, running away from one truth, and life took me to that point,
Each time I ran, running was my only option, my weakness,
No strength, Only hiding my deepest fear, well, no more.

Can you replace me, with him, well, you can,
Can you be so fast that you can move on, probably you can,
Can you believe in whatever he says, to you, and forget all that i said, Surely,
Life is game of remembering the odds, forgetting good ones.

I was alone, was, until I found you, until that day came when you found him,
And came back to square one, My fear, came back, transformed,
It became reality, it was Loneliness, I was scared of being alone,
Always I was alone, I did things alone, i hated it, I feared the sight of no one being there.

Today morning at 3, I woke up from my ignorance, woke up to dawn,
The light had shined, i fear transgressed, moving away from me,
I was listening to her, she was saying, Anna, Music alone Carter road,
The it struck me, Eternal bliss like shined upon me, Thank you God.

Feels like a battle has been won, but not yet, I have to prepare for the final war,
The battle between me and Me, the best time is now, as she said, its here,
Go for it, Life gives you a second chance, then its the Second chance,
Life gives you a third then its the third, Life aint decide chances, we do.

I shall strike my fear down, with a vengeance of a thousand horses,
My guilt shall no longer survive, My words shall never despair,
I have my God and Me, I will win, Like He won, and all of them won,
Through history, you taught me, But now I proclaim, That so shall be your name,
Anna Ganna Manna.

The Pain In Pain

I woke up one Sunday morning, to find that,
something was not rite, something had changed,
There was a Pain, in me, right below my chest, in my right lung,
Probably, and inseparable, Pain has found a new mate to hang out with.

Sorrow, as I now is never lonely, it will find some pal or the other,
Waiting to speak, waiting to make him one, carefully ingesting itself,
Like a virus, or probably a bacteria infection, it just makes you whole,
Thus I proclaim, Pain has found me, its new servant, its new friend.

I smoke, but my pain is still burning inside me,
I drink, but my thirst just increases each time I see you or I don't,
I feel like no food can make my hunger satisfy, or no wine, make my thirst go,
I lie on my bed in pain, as each moment passes, no care, no love, no time,
Only Pain.

And then the worst of my enemies comes through, a speck in my throat,
I cough, for eternity it feels, And the Pain, no the suffering like,
a Sword drilling inside my lungs, like a sword, pierced in me,carefully going in,
Deeper and deeper, it goes, and i cant stop it, it stops, when it wants to stop.

Each moment life is Pain, Each day I miss my love, any love,
That i can get, is like pure smell of the oceans, I feel like,
there is no tomorrow without pain, no yesterday without grief,
No today, which can can make me happy, the Sorrow is deep, m lung hurts again as i write.

And no prophesy, can deliver me, No one can make me happy but you,
The pain, can leave me whole, my money is still not come, so I cant treat myself,
Feels like these are my last days, counting each day each moment, count down,
Alas, I read an email, like breath of fresh air, painless i lie, wow what a sound!

She writes to me, She writes that she cares, Pain, You cant make me sad,
The joy of joys, the pure sense of happiness, the most incredible thing,
Ever to happen, in life, is a sense of wanting, like someone wants you,
Pain and now you, both want me, both love my sorrow, and in pain i sleep, to wake up again in Pain. I sleep.

Lonely Again

After my end of days with the most beautiful girl,
I walk the streets, at night, cold, without any hope,
No sunshine to light my path, I am walking, nowhere,
My directions, have no direction, they are none, but a straight path leading home.

The junk, the loss, they stink, its all in me,
Life is just so unjust, but its good, no more happy feasting,
There is more than one reason why I am still alive, no more wait,
I live to love you still, waiting still wanting some love, someone.

My eyes are moist, wet with pearls, drop down mapping the path
on my chin, I have still been alone, with music in my heart and love in voice,
I sing, I cry, I live to to drink my tears dry, SO much to be consoled,
I still wait, Sleeping on my bed, Nothing to loose, nothing to win.

HOw much more will you enjoy, the sex and the lust, they doing, you watching,
You do not want to be alone, you want one, just one to be with you,
SOmeone I want, to feel, to feel me, not like someone, but Me as ME.
I find none, I feel despaired, waiting for another sundown, waiting for another long night.

Like me or love me, the emotions to feel, is just a smile on your face,
The beauty of one true sunset, the feeling one true love, you want it to stay,
But the feeling is too short, to resist, to remain, to last, and it leaves you,
ANd now when its gone, I want you even more, You will want me, One night of just, wild love.

I stay awake on my bed, tears keep trickling down me,
No one knows why, none will even know why, the secret, is lost with you,
with you gone I am lost in you, inside somewhere, no guilt, no acceptance needed,
Somewhere, Sometime, we will meet, or we shall remain lost, but the love that was, shall never be.

The Next Level Of Insanity

The moment i decided to kill,
The moment life was taken away from you,
I got a strange feeling, melting, cold,
Something happened, something went terribly wrong.

I had lived for you, to live with you all my life,
I took your life away, I took you away from me,
I made you hate me, I made you scared, you feared,
You went far, I left you lifeless, without love.

My moments of desolation are here, You gone, gave me nothing,
My most terrible mistake, My fruitless thoughts, my pain,
My most absurd calculations, lie there lifeless, like dirt,
Pain has engulfed me, swallowed without any taste, Pain.

Mighty is the fear, fear of making you a dead corpse,
Mighty the hate, I have gone insane, talking to the walls,
Love had disappeared from my world, When love gets taken away from you,
when you take the love away, you realize, you miss, you bleed.

Anger, never helps anyone, its a disgrace, a curse to mankind,
Smite me O' Almighty, Their armies of hell, are coming to bound me,
In chains, In the worst nightmares, I have left her,
Left her dead, without love, without blood. with pain, suffering, misery.

Night after night i don't sleep,
I think of her, Think what can I do to bring her back,
take my life my God I don't deserve to live, but she does,
in her inequities, see mine, in her sins see mine, let her pass into bliss.

Smiling, I cry, Crying I shout, Shouting I bleed tears,
No love in life, No life to live,
You took em all away,
With you my source of love life hope identity, went away.
And I stay lifeless, living like dirt,
On the face of this earth.

Thousand Ways To Kill You - (How)

Reading me, is a reason to hate her, Violating all probable codes of conduct,
I trespass, into the paths of unjust and cruel violence, I warn you read further at your risk.
And if you do read further, you must read the post just before this, I can't justify,
I don't need to, But you will figure it out why?

I am Angelo, my soul has become dark, The monster of my past wakes,
I am ready to slaughter a million, I have been hurt, and I don't know why,
All I knew was to love, how did I become an adversary, An enemy,
A lunatic, A freak, its sad, But you will be more happy , when i tear open your jaw.

I will play with your long hair, and then pull them gently, A couple of strands tear,
But I am not satisfied, I want the bunch, I light my cigarette, and I use your skull as my ash tray,
I burn your hair with my lighter, i see it burn, You don't move i have tied you to your bed, our bed,
where we used to sleep, but you cheated, cheated on me. I see your hair burn, your beautiful hair melt.

I can see you cry, You see your hair burn, I lift a hammer and slap your joints, like I used to kill ants when i was a child,
Oh i also remember, i used to ham the crackers with the hammer, the harder you thrust, the louder it bursts,
I can feel your elbow breaking, crackling sound, I thrust your jaw, breaking a couple of your canines,
I laugh, I don't rejoice, I feel the pain, because you feel the pain, and I want you to taste the pain, MY PAIN.

I use a blade, open your mouth and draw a straight line on your tongue, the muscle bleeds, Melons come out,
The lips engulf with blood, Those lips you used, to lie to me, To speak to other men, To charm them,
Now it lies there diffused, the taste buds are no longer attached, you are drinking your own blood now.
You weep, you utter my name the last time, anheloooaaaaaa

I open my tool box, spread some shrapnel on the floor, spread a lot of them on the entire floor,
I lift your bed sideways, you are still drinking your blood, you look at the floor,
I lift my hands and leave it, the bed falls upside down, you are looking at the shrapnels, they come closer to your eyes,
A moment later, they are inside your eyes, Sharp as they are, your eyes bleed, those eyes, which saw other men,
which were full of lust and sin.

You can't scream, you are drinking blood mixed with shrapnel, You are in agony, maybe asking yourself,
Was this Hell? Baby, you haven't seen hell yet, And I break a bottle of Rum, pour it on her,
The wounds burn, Its too much to take, you rather die than, go through this torture, Not so easy,
The sharp end of the bottle neck, I use, to write my name on her perfect legs, waxed for many. The blood streaming down, like a fountain.

I can't see you in so much pain, I want to put you out of your misery,
I take a kitchen knife, and start stabbing your head, Once, twice, thrice, many times,
I can feel that yellow substance, with blood all over my knife, I had created a dent in your head,
I put my fingers in the gaps, and tear open the skull, the yellow matter is all over me, This was the brain, that thought to cheat me, thought of lust, and never felt any guilt.

For some reason you were still breathing, I saw your sun was setting,
Think of the days you cheated on me, You made me look like a miserable lonely piece of shit,
In front of your friends I was always guilty, I was the culprit,
Oh I am the culprit now, culprit of killing you,
Killing you, Thousand ways.

Thousand Ways To Kill You - (Why?)

I had loved you more than me,
You, you betrayed the only one who could give his life for you.
I have no words to explain my pain. Its unbearable,
It just kills me each day, looking at you, I feel, I should.

Started the day of your birthday celebration,
When you accepted his gift, You promised me you give it back,
But you never did, you made me a fool, Made me believe that it was not important,
I am a fool, I was, Not any anymore and so I have decided I should.

You want everyone to crowd around you, Make you feel important,
Each day, I said that I did love you, you just wanted others attention,
I wanted to be the only one, I did not deserve that much of respect from you?
You had so many guys around you, You forgot me, that is the reason why, I should.

I always felt that you understood my pain, I never stated it though,
But I was wrong, You never saw it, You thought I just didn't care enough, I did,
I wanted you to be happy, May be, I thought at the cost of my happiness,
You just didn't get the point, each time I made it, you became defensive, That was more than I could take,
So I should.

You had the people who called you every night, You never told me who they were,
What they spoke to you, Why you took so much time to speak to them,
You didn't spend enough time with me, Respect was like hunger, you feed it, you satisfy,
I was lonely, all through out, You didn't see my misery, my crying. Thats why I should.

And you specifically liked the baldy, You went out for random dinners without telling me,
He had now become your friend who heard you all day and night, what about me?
I don't have anyone like that, You tell me he listens to you, make an attempt to speak to me,
But never, You said I should reconsider my priorities, May be now I should.

After we broke up, you told me that I was still your best friend,
I was ill for more than a week, I coughed each day and each night, without sleep,
I was depressed, horrified, lonely, alienated, thinking someone will call,
No one did, Oh I have chosen my motive in life now, May be you should have too.

I have long been thinking, I have trespassed, you have been the motive of my life,
I have just been thinking how can I, how will I, I don't think I should, May be I should,
Losing each strand of patience in my vein, I lie fruitless, My arms ache and my brain is dead,
The reason I live now is to plan,
Plan thousand ways to Kill you.

Seconds To Pleasure

Soft and smooth, your touch is so divine,
Puts silk to shame, your name, is like new wine,
Poured into my glass, Like the drink of life.
The touch is making me feel like I am going a thousand places.

Seconds later, i want to experience more,
i touch further, exploring the possibilities, Not an uncommon way,
Merely human, guess, the thirst, has just begun, I am wanting it more.
Slowly, my fingers move down your throat, and that sweat rolls down your chin.

That sweet fragrance is making me wild, Its like the pardon of all my sins,
My feet are trembling, I want to sink into your arms, You shiver now,
That makes me want you more, You taste sweet, my angel, I wipe my face against yours.
I roll down my arms, to protect you, from all that is coming against you.

Wish I was not in the library, i was at home, i didn't had to hide,
My mystery is hidden, behind the knots of knowledge, I push and pop
the secret is no longer. College is the place to meet, but i was having my meal,
You were my meal, Eating like a glutton, I have seen you flavor my needs.

The secrets are deeper, The mysteries are unfolding, Like a birthday present,
I first open the ribbons, The package inside is extra-ordinary, Explicit, for my eyes alone.
I face my darkest temptations, rudely, I am being more formal, social than ever,
Not yet an animal, Wait till it gets dark, I walk, those dark lanes, only when I am alone.

Cast me in that magic, that upsurge, the feeling of new sensations, in my veins,
My hand shivers too now, I am slowly, near your lips, kissing you slowly,
Making my lips touch yours, gently, tasting the divine providence,
The promise, of new life, is here, in here, experience it.

That Kiss lasts less than a minute, a couple of blocks away,
We hear someone walking towards this lane, carefully tread your path now,
We smile, and feel each other touch again, I never want to let you go,
I keep gazing at you, at the perfect world, life, nature, beauty, personified.

Making me your slave, you leave, trapped inside, you take me away,
I stand here heartless, wanting more, still enjoying the sweet aroma,
The smile on your wet lips, the brow wet with sweat, its all making me fall,
Cross me, you walk, I have gone into this trance, wanting back, those seconds to pleasure.
Wanting, feeling, deep inside me, the seconds to pleasure.

The Last Of the Shadows

Final plans of resurrection, have been planned,
I have made some head through, Their war is about to begin,
Nasty beasts, Foolish men, Bad schools of thought,
A princess lost at sea, never returned, have to save her.

They all are after her, They, the bunch of fools,
Who can't sort their lives, depressed, despised,
Unnatural, ridiculous losers, making the mark,
The warning I gave, the symbol of hope, for her.

The Assumption is at hand, the nasty birds of fury fly with me,
The Zombies wake with me, the monster, comands my path,
I am good, Bad is inside me, But aren't we all Bad,
There is some goodness in our, black souls, not everyone is as good as HIM.

The gig is about to start, the variance of mentalities is about to clash,
The hidden agendas, all about to be revealed, and my war sactified,
The rumours are going to be true, They are not going to succeed,
The success lies with me, You get her, still you loose her.

She is out there in the wild, I have to make it fast,
I have to act quickly, before the enemies find her out,
The blocks of perception will, build a final array of defence,
The majority are there, but I am the Alpha and the Omega.

Gods have lost against me, The future of my Princess,
Lies ahead of me, The gathering has begun, She is feeling left alone,
The missing ingredient is me, The right mix of all mixes, is missing,
The brand of all brands, isn't there, they all shake, vanity fills them.
But she is sad.

I will get you first, faster than anyone,
Stronger than anyone, is me, ANd none shall be my adversary,
FOr I have the monster, in me, I go forth to defeat all ye,
Fruitless devostees of Golam, Puke my blood and Rot. Behold I have arrived.

I blow fire, and scantify the souls of all the wicked,
The missing link is found, She is happy, to see me,
She comes forth to me and falls in my arm,
The fortress is shaking, I tear my skin, I grow my wings, I steal her,
Fly and redeem them all, All their souls.Behold the heavens open, and they see the light.