Decrypt Me

Lies....All Lies..I really thought when you said,
Ask and I will give you, Love and everything else,
Crying as you left, No option I had, But to,
Encrypt myself again. Surround me with hate So!

They all said, you should have fought more,
A war I bled, A river that I cried for,
I limb that I lost, A Throat that was soar,
Love is smitten me, since a long time ago.

I close me. From this world. From any one,
who enters me, who tries to gain passage,
I understand, I do now, its all Fassad,
Nowhere to find, a canvas that was well painted with me.

Jigsaw Puzzle, is what my scrambled codes look like,
No one can decrypt me, I closed myself, I did,
From anyone, No one SO I don't say You're the one.
No its not true, its always been Fun.

I miss calling you, I miss spending time,
I miss going to your ears and whispering, Saying loads of
Things that put a smiley, on that fairy face,
Your beauty is like a reason for me to live, My Poison.

I lock them away, I don't want to understand,
I feel like a child and so do you,
You know what you want, But are scared, What do to do?
May be they know it best, you think.

Well, I swear Before I met you I fell, so many times,
You fell so many times, and They didn't know about it,
Then why don't you give it a try with me.
I promise I will not let you go ever. Never.

I let you slip through my fingers in 2000,
SO close but I let you go, Again, 2009 you came into my life,
I was successful in making you mine, But I lost you again,
A Thought that I was fighting a war only if you want me too.

But I guess, it was my life, that I didn't fight for,
You had become my everything. You have become my past present and Future.
And so I close myself, Shutting me down is the easiest way,
SO you don't decrypt me anymore, And my love, Our Love gets lost forever anyway.