The Pain In Pain

I woke up one Sunday morning, to find that,
something was not rite, something had changed,
There was a Pain, in me, right below my chest, in my right lung,
Probably, and inseparable, Pain has found a new mate to hang out with.

Sorrow, as I now is never lonely, it will find some pal or the other,
Waiting to speak, waiting to make him one, carefully ingesting itself,
Like a virus, or probably a bacteria infection, it just makes you whole,
Thus I proclaim, Pain has found me, its new servant, its new friend.

I smoke, but my pain is still burning inside me,
I drink, but my thirst just increases each time I see you or I don't,
I feel like no food can make my hunger satisfy, or no wine, make my thirst go,
I lie on my bed in pain, as each moment passes, no care, no love, no time,
Only Pain.

And then the worst of my enemies comes through, a speck in my throat,
I cough, for eternity it feels, And the Pain, no the suffering like,
a Sword drilling inside my lungs, like a sword, pierced in me,carefully going in,
Deeper and deeper, it goes, and i cant stop it, it stops, when it wants to stop.

Each moment life is Pain, Each day I miss my love, any love,
That i can get, is like pure smell of the oceans, I feel like,
there is no tomorrow without pain, no yesterday without grief,
No today, which can can make me happy, the Sorrow is deep, m lung hurts again as i write.

And no prophesy, can deliver me, No one can make me happy but you,
The pain, can leave me whole, my money is still not come, so I cant treat myself,
Feels like these are my last days, counting each day each moment, count down,
Alas, I read an email, like breath of fresh air, painless i lie, wow what a sound!

She writes to me, She writes that she cares, Pain, You cant make me sad,
The joy of joys, the pure sense of happiness, the most incredible thing,
Ever to happen, in life, is a sense of wanting, like someone wants you,
Pain and now you, both want me, both love my sorrow, and in pain i sleep, to wake up again in Pain. I sleep.

Lonely Again

After my end of days with the most beautiful girl,
I walk the streets, at night, cold, without any hope,
No sunshine to light my path, I am walking, nowhere,
My directions, have no direction, they are none, but a straight path leading home.

The junk, the loss, they stink, its all in me,
Life is just so unjust, but its good, no more happy feasting,
There is more than one reason why I am still alive, no more wait,
I live to love you still, waiting still wanting some love, someone.

My eyes are moist, wet with pearls, drop down mapping the path
on my chin, I have still been alone, with music in my heart and love in voice,
I sing, I cry, I live to to drink my tears dry, SO much to be consoled,
I still wait, Sleeping on my bed, Nothing to loose, nothing to win.

HOw much more will you enjoy, the sex and the lust, they doing, you watching,
You do not want to be alone, you want one, just one to be with you,
SOmeone I want, to feel, to feel me, not like someone, but Me as ME.
I find none, I feel despaired, waiting for another sundown, waiting for another long night.

Like me or love me, the emotions to feel, is just a smile on your face,
The beauty of one true sunset, the feeling one true love, you want it to stay,
But the feeling is too short, to resist, to remain, to last, and it leaves you,
ANd now when its gone, I want you even more, You will want me, One night of just, wild love.

I stay awake on my bed, tears keep trickling down me,
No one knows why, none will even know why, the secret, is lost with you,
with you gone I am lost in you, inside somewhere, no guilt, no acceptance needed,
Somewhere, Sometime, we will meet, or we shall remain lost, but the love that was, shall never be.

The Next Level Of Insanity

The moment i decided to kill,
The moment life was taken away from you,
I got a strange feeling, melting, cold,
Something happened, something went terribly wrong.

I had lived for you, to live with you all my life,
I took your life away, I took you away from me,
I made you hate me, I made you scared, you feared,
You went far, I left you lifeless, without love.

My moments of desolation are here, You gone, gave me nothing,
My most terrible mistake, My fruitless thoughts, my pain,
My most absurd calculations, lie there lifeless, like dirt,
Pain has engulfed me, swallowed without any taste, Pain.

Mighty is the fear, fear of making you a dead corpse,
Mighty the hate, I have gone insane, talking to the walls,
Love had disappeared from my world, When love gets taken away from you,
when you take the love away, you realize, you miss, you bleed.

Anger, never helps anyone, its a disgrace, a curse to mankind,
Smite me O' Almighty, Their armies of hell, are coming to bound me,
In chains, In the worst nightmares, I have left her,
Left her dead, without love, without blood. with pain, suffering, misery.

Night after night i don't sleep,
I think of her, Think what can I do to bring her back,
take my life my God I don't deserve to live, but she does,
in her inequities, see mine, in her sins see mine, let her pass into bliss.

Smiling, I cry, Crying I shout, Shouting I bleed tears,
No love in life, No life to live,
You took em all away,
With you my source of love life hope identity, went away.
And I stay lifeless, living like dirt,
On the face of this earth.

Thousand Ways To Kill You - (How)

Reading me, is a reason to hate her, Violating all probable codes of conduct,
I trespass, into the paths of unjust and cruel violence, I warn you read further at your risk.
And if you do read further, you must read the post just before this, I can't justify,
I don't need to, But you will figure it out why?

I am Angelo, my soul has become dark, The monster of my past wakes,
I am ready to slaughter a million, I have been hurt, and I don't know why,
All I knew was to love, how did I become an adversary, An enemy,
A lunatic, A freak, its sad, But you will be more happy , when i tear open your jaw.

I will play with your long hair, and then pull them gently, A couple of strands tear,
But I am not satisfied, I want the bunch, I light my cigarette, and I use your skull as my ash tray,
I burn your hair with my lighter, i see it burn, You don't move i have tied you to your bed, our bed,
where we used to sleep, but you cheated, cheated on me. I see your hair burn, your beautiful hair melt.

I can see you cry, You see your hair burn, I lift a hammer and slap your joints, like I used to kill ants when i was a child,
Oh i also remember, i used to ham the crackers with the hammer, the harder you thrust, the louder it bursts,
I can feel your elbow breaking, crackling sound, I thrust your jaw, breaking a couple of your canines,
I laugh, I don't rejoice, I feel the pain, because you feel the pain, and I want you to taste the pain, MY PAIN.

I use a blade, open your mouth and draw a straight line on your tongue, the muscle bleeds, Melons come out,
The lips engulf with blood, Those lips you used, to lie to me, To speak to other men, To charm them,
Now it lies there diffused, the taste buds are no longer attached, you are drinking your own blood now.
You weep, you utter my name the last time, anheloooaaaaaa

I open my tool box, spread some shrapnel on the floor, spread a lot of them on the entire floor,
I lift your bed sideways, you are still drinking your blood, you look at the floor,
I lift my hands and leave it, the bed falls upside down, you are looking at the shrapnels, they come closer to your eyes,
A moment later, they are inside your eyes, Sharp as they are, your eyes bleed, those eyes, which saw other men,
which were full of lust and sin.

You can't scream, you are drinking blood mixed with shrapnel, You are in agony, maybe asking yourself,
Was this Hell? Baby, you haven't seen hell yet, And I break a bottle of Rum, pour it on her,
The wounds burn, Its too much to take, you rather die than, go through this torture, Not so easy,
The sharp end of the bottle neck, I use, to write my name on her perfect legs, waxed for many. The blood streaming down, like a fountain.

I can't see you in so much pain, I want to put you out of your misery,
I take a kitchen knife, and start stabbing your head, Once, twice, thrice, many times,
I can feel that yellow substance, with blood all over my knife, I had created a dent in your head,
I put my fingers in the gaps, and tear open the skull, the yellow matter is all over me, This was the brain, that thought to cheat me, thought of lust, and never felt any guilt.

For some reason you were still breathing, I saw your sun was setting,
Think of the days you cheated on me, You made me look like a miserable lonely piece of shit,
In front of your friends I was always guilty, I was the culprit,
Oh I am the culprit now, culprit of killing you,
Killing you, Thousand ways.

Thousand Ways To Kill You - (Why?)

I had loved you more than me,
You, you betrayed the only one who could give his life for you.
I have no words to explain my pain. Its unbearable,
It just kills me each day, looking at you, I feel, I should.

Started the day of your birthday celebration,
When you accepted his gift, You promised me you give it back,
But you never did, you made me a fool, Made me believe that it was not important,
I am a fool, I was, Not any anymore and so I have decided I should.

You want everyone to crowd around you, Make you feel important,
Each day, I said that I did love you, you just wanted others attention,
I wanted to be the only one, I did not deserve that much of respect from you?
You had so many guys around you, You forgot me, that is the reason why, I should.

I always felt that you understood my pain, I never stated it though,
But I was wrong, You never saw it, You thought I just didn't care enough, I did,
I wanted you to be happy, May be, I thought at the cost of my happiness,
You just didn't get the point, each time I made it, you became defensive, That was more than I could take,
So I should.

You had the people who called you every night, You never told me who they were,
What they spoke to you, Why you took so much time to speak to them,
You didn't spend enough time with me, Respect was like hunger, you feed it, you satisfy,
I was lonely, all through out, You didn't see my misery, my crying. Thats why I should.

And you specifically liked the baldy, You went out for random dinners without telling me,
He had now become your friend who heard you all day and night, what about me?
I don't have anyone like that, You tell me he listens to you, make an attempt to speak to me,
But never, You said I should reconsider my priorities, May be now I should.

After we broke up, you told me that I was still your best friend,
I was ill for more than a week, I coughed each day and each night, without sleep,
I was depressed, horrified, lonely, alienated, thinking someone will call,
No one did, Oh I have chosen my motive in life now, May be you should have too.

I have long been thinking, I have trespassed, you have been the motive of my life,
I have just been thinking how can I, how will I, I don't think I should, May be I should,
Losing each strand of patience in my vein, I lie fruitless, My arms ache and my brain is dead,
The reason I live now is to plan,
Plan thousand ways to Kill you.

Seconds To Pleasure

Soft and smooth, your touch is so divine,
Puts silk to shame, your name, is like new wine,
Poured into my glass, Like the drink of life.
The touch is making me feel like I am going a thousand places.

Seconds later, i want to experience more,
i touch further, exploring the possibilities, Not an uncommon way,
Merely human, guess, the thirst, has just begun, I am wanting it more.
Slowly, my fingers move down your throat, and that sweat rolls down your chin.

That sweet fragrance is making me wild, Its like the pardon of all my sins,
My feet are trembling, I want to sink into your arms, You shiver now,
That makes me want you more, You taste sweet, my angel, I wipe my face against yours.
I roll down my arms, to protect you, from all that is coming against you.

Wish I was not in the library, i was at home, i didn't had to hide,
My mystery is hidden, behind the knots of knowledge, I push and pop
the secret is no longer. College is the place to meet, but i was having my meal,
You were my meal, Eating like a glutton, I have seen you flavor my needs.

The secrets are deeper, The mysteries are unfolding, Like a birthday present,
I first open the ribbons, The package inside is extra-ordinary, Explicit, for my eyes alone.
I face my darkest temptations, rudely, I am being more formal, social than ever,
Not yet an animal, Wait till it gets dark, I walk, those dark lanes, only when I am alone.

Cast me in that magic, that upsurge, the feeling of new sensations, in my veins,
My hand shivers too now, I am slowly, near your lips, kissing you slowly,
Making my lips touch yours, gently, tasting the divine providence,
The promise, of new life, is here, in here, experience it.

That Kiss lasts less than a minute, a couple of blocks away,
We hear someone walking towards this lane, carefully tread your path now,
We smile, and feel each other touch again, I never want to let you go,
I keep gazing at you, at the perfect world, life, nature, beauty, personified.

Making me your slave, you leave, trapped inside, you take me away,
I stand here heartless, wanting more, still enjoying the sweet aroma,
The smile on your wet lips, the brow wet with sweat, its all making me fall,
Cross me, you walk, I have gone into this trance, wanting back, those seconds to pleasure.
Wanting, feeling, deep inside me, the seconds to pleasure.

The Last Of the Shadows

Final plans of resurrection, have been planned,
I have made some head through, Their war is about to begin,
Nasty beasts, Foolish men, Bad schools of thought,
A princess lost at sea, never returned, have to save her.

They all are after her, They, the bunch of fools,
Who can't sort their lives, depressed, despised,
Unnatural, ridiculous losers, making the mark,
The warning I gave, the symbol of hope, for her.

The Assumption is at hand, the nasty birds of fury fly with me,
The Zombies wake with me, the monster, comands my path,
I am good, Bad is inside me, But aren't we all Bad,
There is some goodness in our, black souls, not everyone is as good as HIM.

The gig is about to start, the variance of mentalities is about to clash,
The hidden agendas, all about to be revealed, and my war sactified,
The rumours are going to be true, They are not going to succeed,
The success lies with me, You get her, still you loose her.

She is out there in the wild, I have to make it fast,
I have to act quickly, before the enemies find her out,
The blocks of perception will, build a final array of defence,
The majority are there, but I am the Alpha and the Omega.

Gods have lost against me, The future of my Princess,
Lies ahead of me, The gathering has begun, She is feeling left alone,
The missing ingredient is me, The right mix of all mixes, is missing,
The brand of all brands, isn't there, they all shake, vanity fills them.
But she is sad.

I will get you first, faster than anyone,
Stronger than anyone, is me, ANd none shall be my adversary,
FOr I have the monster, in me, I go forth to defeat all ye,
Fruitless devostees of Golam, Puke my blood and Rot. Behold I have arrived.

I blow fire, and scantify the souls of all the wicked,
The missing link is found, She is happy, to see me,
She comes forth to me and falls in my arm,
The fortress is shaking, I tear my skin, I grow my wings, I steal her,
Fly and redeem them all, All their souls.Behold the heavens open, and they see the light.

Me Against The World - Part 2 (Work)

Dangerous Waters I tread, Since my Monster woke,
The path of dishonesty, to show my honesty,
The path of vengeance, to show my innocence,
The roads of ruthlessness, to show my selflessness.

I hide, behind me, My monster hides in me,
Waiting, Staring at my moves, making me raw, wild.
Son of man, Saw wilder things, but said none,
Thats why I aint he, and I fight back, the world, to start the end.

It is coming, I saw it, I pushed myself like a snake,
wandering in the sights of vicious death,
I slept, just to wake up and execute, Execution,
But this time its not me, I will feed ye to the dogs. Soon.

My weeks are passing faster, My plans are working,
My vicious emotions drag me along, the world has made me,
The Victorious bastard, and I don't care anymore,
Like fruits falling only in one basket, and was mine. I rejoice.

Leave me alone, I cry, I am full of the victory claps,
The Gods are proud, the Kings were proud, Oh yes, I was proud,
I proved that i was God, I made myself one,
The invincible, Almighty, the vicious monstrous won.

Sleeping each day, ignorant of those leeches, whom I hated,
I had crushed them under my feet, my luster had overshadowed, their kisses
They had been forgotten, after they were cursed, cursed and sent to shambles,
I, was the only one, the victorious scientist, the beloved one. Curse me and you burn.

And i looked up and stared at the red clouds, and commanded, RAIN,
But the bastards didn't, I was God, and I should be obeyed,
And the skies, turned blood, the sun set laying me in darkness,
Was I not the righteous? Was I not the oppressed? And look what thou had made me,
THE WORLD, It was I and THEM, but I became them, timeline me.

I saw myself crawling on four feet, I had won, But I was left alone,
I was just one, Now I could trust none, I had shown them their true face,
But instead exposed my monster, my filth, was now visible, Murky was I,
They had decomposed, rotting with the Zombies,
And I, I against me, Now I was the world. Was I?

Me Against The World - Part 1 (Work)

This is not an account of how people at work treat me,
This is just my persona, speaking, may be its my perception,
May be, But its the world out there, wanting to chew me down in a thousand pieces,
Its evident, Its right there, waiting each day, like a hungry dog, wanting attention.

Each day I enter, I flash my card, I wait to be obliged,
Making millions each day, pay me cents, pay me less,
Make me want to quit, but like a bonded labour, i work,
Swear if I had a chance, I would thrash them all ye fools.

Entering office, gloomy faces around, only happy face is that of my pc,
Inhuman, but bright, intellectual, but stupid,
Happy faces around, just a couple, for whom i maintain the code,
The only source of creative upsurge, is them, oh beloved.

Mark me, Unmark me, Add me and Negate me,
I am there, right in front of your eyes, oh mighty kings,
But you can't see the faithful, who work under you, you like leeches,
Cling on to you, make you feel good, rotten rats, may you get more kisses.

Its not easy, Working each day, faithfully, undermined, disgraced, teased,
Shame, you redefine my persona, I go beyond, the normal upholding,
Fall down the grave to see a thousand souls, resting, they were smitten,
They were pressed, oppressed, degraded and decomposed, they were lying there,
Zombies.

Opened my eyes, to gaze at the empty office, I was still far from over,
While others were safely in bed, Worried about me were a handful, Can't do much,
Just Moan.
I opened my eyes, opened to sunshine, in that dark hour, in that spliff of smoke on my lips,
And my lungs full of the fire, the monster had risen, from me, the depths. They shall END.

Windows Open

Just as I woke up with a start,
I swallowed some saliva, thinking I saw a ghost,
But may not be one, Just my imagination going wild.
Needless to say there is nothing in this world like that.

Opened my window, saw a shadow,
Hid behind my curtains, watching the show,
Not a ghost, a shadow in the dark, mystery fog,
Needless to say, she was not in white, but in black smog.

4 in the morning, this was just a vision,
A guilty past that I could see, Not think,
Wrong, everything was wrong, my vision, my past,
I was dreaming I thought, coz I could see my darkest fears, immobilizing me.

A Night, or an early morning Vision, All I could see is her,
Crying, the past, was dull, sad, it wasn't a nightmare,
It was the woman and child crying, Sinfully deserted, Lustfully used and thrown,
Crying from the depths of my eternal damnation, the calling of Satan.

I had sinned, Somewhere in the past, Sometime in the past,
I had promised and forgotten, the child, looked like a prey,
Smitten, hungry, upset, dark winds blowing, shadows disappearing,
My mind was playing with me, But it had opened the window......the past

It was at this unearthly hour, 8 years ago, I slept by her,
Dreaming of a wonderful life, a beautiful future,
But like cracked glass, I gave in to the vanity of this world, Money!
I left, seeking the bright future, selfish, alone, and I saw her never.

So I sleep, alone, each day, Just to wake up and leave,
As I left that night, but I sold my soul, To the vanity,
the wealth, the hunger of sick paper, made me leave and close the doors, on her
Leaving the windows, open for the past, the sick thoughts, the past....windows open in despair.
Each night....every night, forever.

New Talk In Town

So there is the new talk in town,
There is some joker, coming up with a new band,
Probability is that I will meet the joker,
Face off must happen, you know why?

Jokes are just inhuman comedy, we laugh at,
Everything is a joke, I feel sometimes,
Then why is it not funny when I make people cry,
Rebuking other people is what joking is, isn't it?

Finally the face appears, he is baldy, and has 2 face,
Fair as milk, he makes me, wana throw up,
He disgusts me, try to make me laugh, There are no laughs,
around me, I tell him that, But he ain't stopping, that disgusting face.

Sorry guys, I owe you an apology,
I haven't posted for long, will make sure I will more often,
There is blatant sense of comedy, I feel, I laugh at him,
I smash his pumpkin head, and do my last laugh in style saying,
"I am the only joker in town, you ain't better than me, Fuck off"

Supra Nights

My nights have suddenly become,
My most ambitions song of my days.
Spending in absolute darkness I see them,
Wealthy and in action,
And I dream on.......

There is not much on TV these days,
But i Still spend my nights for them,
Thinking the next moment to be my next best shot.
But I fail, Critics have no other business, they lie, they fake.
But they say they are real, righteous beasts.

Meanings are no longer meant to say, what meanings suppose,
But they scream out in an obscene way of the night,
The beast stays asleep for the night, but i stay awake thinking, planning.....
What will I do, I am just the last one of my clan,
The remorse that feels in my blood, with hunger in my guts.

My nights are just another statement i shall make to you,
take the right way or the left,
I am here to stay, the rise shall happen, soon......
with me an entire force of righteous, the doomed shall no no longer be cursed.
My time is to begin.......

The nights ......the time i spend with you,
will all go down in history, with that sweet sound of melody flowing down my eyes,
in gold and silver i shall be adorned, the king that i shall be,
the ruler of kingdoms unknown, undisputed, with no count,
Now i speak to all, call out to you my forces, stand for me now or never.....
But i shall still keep calling, spending my nights with you, the keys will lead me to glory.
The two hands that cut me shall be called heroes,
My prophesy is yet to come true.....

No More Bullshit !

This is not a poem or song,
Well telling with a really bad pain,
I am done with this world.
The world of absolute blasphemy.
They just want what they want.

No mindless bullshit anymore.
they don't have time for that,
they are moving fast enough to just 'get to the point' syndrome,
to get their minds and hearts tuned to the fruits of wealth.
Nowhere in this world you can find a friend who can take ,
what you are really saying. they feel its mindless crap.

No heed to anyone, no words said.
Heart to heart and mind in my mouth,
but no one listens, i scream, but they you traveling with the speed of light,
No time to stop and listen to my minds pondering s.
Its like getting lost in the crowd.....again.

I am sick, not with fever, but with this trash,
No one has the mind anymore. they are busy with rock and roll,
their music is my disgust, their wealth is my disgust,
I don't have any , none, i am worthless??
May they live forever......

Started to realize the world is obsessed with milk and honey,
No words of truth, no world of heart, no love,
children are no more learning to grow, they are instead growing to learn,
honey thats the depleting ozone has to say, we are just guests in this world now,
never no when we shall be up, gone and away,
but you will live forever , the disgusted world........

Kill me More

In love and in hate
in war in peace, man forgets,
the main theme,
the natures quest for justice, gets me with surprise,
it lets me analyze the perfect plan, and still the rivalry remains,
the tiff between man and man, and man and nature.

The brilliance in the plan, the technological excellence,
the martyrs of war, the terrorists who die, the nature's wrath,
connections well beyond imagination, beyond human understanding.
Th plan is to kill more, and more and more,
both nature and man and woman.

The grandeur of His plan, the not so much popular games,
the resistance to polictics,
can you gain me a world. the more money i have the more people i can buy,
but can buy nature? well i buy land, buy trees, buy sky, buy space, buy everything but nature itself.
we are its children, but we have overpaid our dues.

Respects have become insults, gestures have become statements,
money has become power, no longer caste , race , sex, holds bar, bar me ,
i am a liberal, but they will kill me. they don't understand.
i am tiny , but i cant be a hero, because hero is just an imagination, fiction.
we all are heroes, we have the power over us, all we need to do is kill.
the more you kill the more you kill,
kill him , kill her kill all, kill me,
kill me more than anything, or nature will...the time has come.....
the killing has begun........come kill me more.

Love, Music, Roxette Style

When you fall in love,
Crash, Boom, Bang !
Said once by Roxette, Oh that glorious days,
How may i forget that road that we tread.

My innocence is my curse, And i really don't have an idea why it comes and hits me,
SO hard that i fall back on my back, thinking of the next best thing to hit me again.
Really not spoken great things or rocket science.
But the very existence being challenged by the superiors.
I am not God but my love is Roxette style.

Living with you one day would be a reality,
But how much will you miss me then,
Questions and answers will clutter our thoughts,
No matter what, you energize my cells, like nitrous to my veins.
The sheer pleasure of looking at the fastest car in NFS,
But I am not wrong, because my love is Roxette style.

The old things have wrapped up,
A new era has begun, the bug has lost its war,
but my love still waits for an endless fall,
We made the light fall over the wall,
But no matter what the trail passes my imagination.
The little things that make us happy are complicated than simple.
But let no complications arise, coz my love is still Roxette style.

The Second Touch

I can feel you near again,
you are there with me once more like the old days,
like the good days,
and i will stay here by you again,
never let you go.

I will kiss you like never before,
make it a kiss to remember, and you would be exhausted by the end,
I will touch your skin again like the old days,
like the hug in the foir,
like the kiss in my kitchen.

Feel you in me , breathe you in me ,
Making you feel like home,
The rains are back , and the times are rewinding,
we go back to the past ,
the strings are playing your song..
like the day in the college hall,
playing on your sweet request.

The coldplay of waters gushing through,
the showers of wind hitting the window,
making me feel nice and cool and loved,
Emmaculate isnot the word that i feel, i am back
the island is where we are,
The second touch of our love starts now......

My Victory is in You

Well as i was just reading through the poems that i wrote,
I have just found out that they are really singing out to you,
My moto is to love you every day,
Every second every minute,
losing out on that wud be a sin....

SOrrows are no longer there with me any more,
the night has passed by , the day is come,
it shines like a splendid smile on ya face,
You look gorgeous, and more over i will be living with you forever...

Tears will stop now, Days are longer now and the nights are shorter,
The times are happier and better,
Love had changed me and now it has changed me again ,
The sweet music flows again and my heart just prances, the day is cominh when i can meet you again.

My day is bad but when i speak to you ,
Its just like sweet murderous kiss,
and i dont want to get away ,
feel like its just so overflowing in me now, when can i talk to you like i used to...the evenings from 8 to 10...nonstop marathon..

You look beautiful when u smile at that ,
i love you and may god bless you forever,
The pleasure of winning is in you and i wud like to feel it once more, in you is my life , my happiness, my moments of ecstacy,
My victory are you , my god of love, or rather love alone is personified in you...thankyou for u are in me and i will take care my love in me...i love you....love !

My LaSt WiSh

Viewing the cars go by, am standing on the road,
i see one coming right towards me,
It comes near and i cant lift my eyes of it,
its coming and i am not able to move,
i am frozen.....my last mins ........

I go blank , goes flashback to the time that i met you,
Out side the college hall,
I promised you that i will be giving you a world of love and happiness only,
Perhaps i am not there still or may be the reality is something else, is it....?

Feeling nervous about the times that i have told you ,
Love or hate the relation is all binding,
But still the pain that i gave you,
is immence, i know sorry wont be enough, my tears cant wash the stain i left on you , my brutality is wat i am ashamed of....

Happiness is all that i had to offer you so why did this not happen,
come on now unfreeze me coz death awaits me,
I shall be or no, but my love will stay always,
in the universe , somwhere....the last drops fall by and the car driving towards me stops ....an i collapse
i open my eyes, cant see anyone but you...
i am afraid ..lonely nothing do i care my birth , my childhood, my first crush.....my home..my money...nothing..nothing at all...

you is all what i want now,
the revealation stops an i wake up in your arms,
my last wish before i go far away ,
to meet you was, an now its all complete...i love you forever ...i will meet you in my next life if i have any.......and i sink........

The Last Drop Shed

hi ther i have just felt this in me,
missing u like crazy,
crying to have the love shared with u for once,
in words, but cant express it so the flowin words wud be my river of love for u.

Smiling at cause of esctasy ,
the day we spend on one bed and the tears that we shed,
all make up for the of final war of sorrows,
Make me your servant and will make u win,
Come on like the rebel Che Guerra lets step in the world with force.

we live now forever an will live always for time immortal,
spending the day with ignorance that nights were supposed to be spent together,
but missing u is like addiction, no bed no sleep , no u no sleep ........

Dreams are with u , otherwise with you only,
Sinking the roads of memory i feel u embracing me tight like never before, thought that cold chill in my spine,
my tears roll down while i express my grief,
my apology to you for the words that spear u , that spear was double edged !

Come now the evenings are passing by without you,
work or no work, time immortal pass by thinking of u,
love me more, and i will love you more than more,
nothing will be ther at the end only us an love,
love you more , more than more........

The Genetic Imbalance

A dream can define the thoughts in us,
But we may or may understand them,
For we are small and spontaneous,
We forget the bigger larger picture in front of them.

Making you want me was my goal,
I acheived it by loving you so much,
Now you love me and i love your soul,
the feelings have risen much higher than much.

Feeling lonely is part of my life too,
But thats something which i have learnt to deal with i believe,
Its still in your hands wheather to be lonely or no ,
Something that i know is that you are strong and fierce, thats why i love u so much.

Excited am i to live my life with you,
All the days of my life shall i share everything,
You are my ulimate goal, My Ulitmate messiah,
My Jesus, My Mother Theresa, My Elvis , My Amitabh Bachchan,My love an only mine.

Time is wat i rule out as its not in my hands,
I want u to close every moment but it play s foul,
WIll be with you for ever more, have to lose to time,
Or suffer the brutal defeat by keeping time at my side,
but no i am not cruel...i love you ...more now than ever.